[Nope, no relaxing allowed, even if Dustin is moving past the point of "pleasantly numb" to "my fingers feel funny and so does my face" on the Recently Ingested Painkillers progression scale (which sneaks up on him pretty quickly, considering his rapid metabolism). His knees wobble a little as he doggedly walks towards the door and fumbles with his coat.]
I'll come with you. [Just inviting himself to that excursion, thanks.] She have an office or something around here?
Not long after (though maybe long for Tommy), there's a knock at Tommy's door. Billy looks a little concerned. Tommy hasn't invited him around a lot lately. If he is now he figures it must be for something pressing.
Is he though? Who had Billy been asked to magic up an ice cream birthday cake, complete with number shaped candles for a 1 and a 9 for just yesterday? Come on, man, keep up.
"Of course it's bad. He's nineteen and I'm in my mid twenties. God, I'm fucking old."
Ah. Right. If Billy had been born a little later he might be more concerned about the age difference, but he gives him a blank look like he doesn't really understand what the problem is. Especially considering-
"...I'm with someone in their hundreds, Tommy. If you're looking for me to agree with you I might be the wrong guy."
"Yeah, well, you're in your twenties too, and a god," Tommy says, because he clearly thinks that's a whole different thing. "And he's not either of those things. He's nineteen and no one has ever been nice to him in his life and I shouldn't be flirting with him."
Billy's not sure how much a difference that makes, but he considers for a moment.
"I mean- you clearly have some concerns about it. So that's...worth looking at. He is an adult though, and you're not like...his boss or anything. I don't think it's that weird?"
It's a difference because the guy is only nineteen today (and he has no clue said guy is up on the bridge at this moment talking to Gladio about the same situation). Tommy buries his face in his hands and groans before collapsing dramatically on his bed.
"He's also straight, B. What do we say about falling for pretty young straight boys?"
Wow. You've got it bad brother. Billy tries to remember how old Kenny was? Had Tommy had this same fit of dramatics over him? He laughs softly and takes a seat on the edge of the bed so he can pat Tommy's head apologetically.
"It's a lesson in heartbreak? Tell me what happened. What changed?"
He doesn't have it at all, thank you very much. It's just... Geez. It was just complicated. And excuse you, Kyle was in college, so that was more appropriate than this. And Shiro was older than him. So was David for that matter. And Eli.
No, the dramatics just go hand in hand with Tommy and guys. Sure he hit on them, sure he liked them, but it was always so much harder to accept that about himself, even when he was out and proud before he started getting involved with them. And the older he got, the more he admitted to himself he wanted substance and not just hook ups.
"I don't know. There was this moment toward the end of the surfing part of his birthday thing yesterday. We were wrestling in the water and I let him pin me and just... There was just something in how he looked at me. And I didn't get it until now, but... NO, it's not possible. He's straight. But then I realized later I'd been flirting with him some and that's so not okay. I'm supposed to be his best friend and his support not... Not checking him out because he's got a bit of muscles he tries to hide because he's all ashamed of his scars."
God. Fuck.
"I compared his scars to Kintsugi. If dude wasn't straight as fuck he might have seriously thought I was coming onto him."
(billy's views are not necessarily my more grown up views, lol)
Billy thinks you are way over thinking this. Especially if he didn't question when he was the younger party.
Drama and Tommy definitely go hand in hand, there's no denying that. Billy listens and nods and resists the urge to call his brother an idiot.
"...so you were wrestling and there was a moment?" he repeats, "Where he looked at you with....the look. And you came out of that thinking he's straight and you did something wrong?" Is he getting all of that?
"If he was gay, and your friend, and you crushed on him, but he wasn't interested, would that make you a bad person?"
he's still early twenties (tommy acts so old and he's only got, like, two years on his brother)
"Yeah, you keep saying that," Billy notes, arching a brow. Like...a lot. Which of us are you trying to convince? "You'd know better than me. The guy was bleeding out when I met him, we didn't really get to talking about his sexual preferences."
He snorts softly at Tommy's answer. "Okay, if your ages were switched, would you feel bad about it?"
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